huaaamph..

ini hanya note bodoh tentang seorang cewe yg ga bs tdr krn takut ktm mimpi sama yg sll dtg dlm tdrnya.. smtr 'kata org rindu itu indah namun bagiku menyiksa' ini smkin hr mkin mgila.. blum lg pkran rutinitas yg padat esoknya.. plus tetek bengek yg mnambah rasa 'nano2' dihari2nya.. Bkutat dg teknologi canggih yg bnama hp plus bs browsing cm bwt ngalihin pkrn busuk dan rasa sepi dihatinya.. tetap aja kpentok ama rasa jenuh.. Kurang mensyukuri idup kata yg tepat utk disandangnya! Eits, tp hidup tak selalu spt 'choki2' kan.. Dia bpkr "ak mgkn krg bsyukur., tp ak mnikmati hdp.. mengeluh, bsyukur, marah, senang, canda, sedih, bahagia, cinta, benci, kecewa, bangga, smua paket hidup kan.. dan ak menikmatinya.. ku rasa ku ckp mnikmati hdpku.. mgkn ak ckp bsyukur dg mnikmatinya!".. benar2 cewe bodoh!

ini bukan itu..

Hanya sedikit mengingat masa2 saat masih menikmati bubur ayam hangat..
Ga berarti tak bersyukur dengan bubur dingin yang tersaji dihadapanku..
Hanya sedikit berharap setidaknya masih ada kecap manis sebagai penghibur..
'Makan yang ada aja' kata ibu..
'apa aku punya pilihan lain?' jawabku..
'ada, masak aja sendiri!' balasnya..
'seandainya aku bisa..' keluhku..
Ku ambil sesuap bubur dingin itu dan mencoba menikmatinya dalam setiap kunyahanku..
'bubur, aku tau besok aku akan bisa menikmati hangatmu ditemani lezatnya ayam rebus' batinku..
'Aku hanya perlu bersabar dan bersyukur atasmu..'

he is soooo great... love it!!

here we go again..
there is a car parking in front of my house..
they want to sell it..
BMW.. yup thats the car...
seems like dad interest with that lovely car..
but the price is too high for him...
then he ask me : "do want that car??"
GOSH!!!!
u dont have to ask me dad...
just make an offer then give me the key as a gift!!!
i'm dying to have that car!!!
triiiing...
okay, back to earth..
that was number 290546 of time he asked me something...
but the "thing" is never showed up...
huhuhu...
but lets dreaming...
me, myself driving an old BMW, which is i dont have a license yet..
n not interested to have it, since i always drive a motorcycle without that tiny expensive card!!!
ooooowww...
its all around my head...
u tell me what i supposed to do to make this thing come true...
me with my thing!!!
mine!!!
okay.. okay...
its too much, huh!
but i cant stop thinkin bout that lovely car...
he is out of my room...
i can feel it...
he so close to me...
ummm....
slap me plis!!! i must wake up...
slap me....
please....
please....
slaaaap...
...........

He is "him"

i'm a... umm.. said woman umm no.. girl??
okay! u figure it out...
since jan 2010, i'm in love with my school friend..
actually i like him since we were in the same class which it is in 2000..
not a nice guy i think at the first time..
but, day by day i got this kind of something that makes me feel comfort being with him..
and lonely when he just not around..
okay...
is that "something" means love??
no.. no..
its just attractive..
by the way..
the day is coming..
day that i, actually we must move to the next level...
college..
yup!!
we are having a different university...
he still on my mind after all..
once upon a time, someone has crush on me..
he asked me to be his gal..
but the first think came to my mind is him!!
feels like i'm already settle for him..
ya ya ya...
its fairy tale..
then i must back to reality..
that he never try to find me for all this time..
then i said "okay, lets try some fun".
things going change..
i'm dating with some guys..
until i'm in love with the next guy..
fyi, i'm already forget about "him"..
yup, coz he never showed up..
another information is i've found that "he" is in a relationship with someone..
okay, then i continue my love life minus "him"..
but my relationship is not good..
i'm broke with my boyfren, for good i think... n he's think same as i do..
i live my life freely..
having no boyfren, but i have a "boyfren"..
yup, not for a future..
he's a nice boy..
extra care served for me..
loyal driver actually..
u can call me selfish, coz i do nothing for him..
hehehe... come on, i'm young, i'm free...
life is so short right??
things going unright..
then suddenly we met..
me n "him"..
by YM...
yup... YM!!!
dag dig dug..
my heart beating...
sooooo fast!!!
i'm gonna meet my fairytale..
okay, he is there..
wearing a polo shirt n soooooo man!! i cant tell...
i just... Gosh, i do like this man...
n that night is a great nite ever...
dont think something bad was happen okay...